Thursday, May 20, 2010

A way to...?

It's been a long time since I've written, and it would take too long to explain all the reasons. So I'll just say I've been busy. Which is true. Basically, I decided to start thinking. A little late in the ball game, but hey. Thinking, praying, changing, and...(do not break my dramatic sentence here) starting to live again. Living is a good feeling. Living right, simple, basic, freely is even better. I'm letting go, of drama and control. And it makes me smile.
ANYways...
So, I wrote this a while ago and meant to post it. It's unfinished, so eventually, it may be...come finished. Yes, I am tired:







A desire consumes me. In fact, sometimes I'm sure it's eating me alive. One of those desires that hurts, but the hurt only makes you want it more.
What do I desire? I want a way to live.
I exist, but existence cannot be the answer.
Life takes choices, decisions. Many of us don't realizes that non-decision is a decision. Over a lifetime, one's decisions form a kind of map.
I wonder what mine will look like.
Not only do I want a way to live, I want a way to be, a way to lead and a way to inspire.
Simply put- I want to change my world. I want to change it now- at 17, and I want to change it at 40. I cannot, nor should I be content to wait.
Because God doesn't. The Creator of the universe is ready to use ME, today - and yet I stand motionless. What is worse is that this is true of the vast majority of people.


I want to be different.
Because I am saying yes.


I'm saying 'yes' to God.


What are you saying?


~ImpossibleisNothing~
-BeAWorldChanger-


-SarahLydia. The real SarahLydia.